My knee is injured again. It has been for a couple of months and the doctor is taking a very conservative approach and having me try different anti-inflammatories. They are not working. I fear that another surgery is on the horizon, and that makes me sad/angry/disappointed. There are so many things that I still cannot do that I could do before the surgery. It has changed my life in many ways.
One of the biggest ways is that I've had to accept the fact that I cannot do CrossFit any more and I do not know if I ever will be able to. There are some things I could do, but many, many things would have to be modified...some to the point that they wouldn't even resemble the original workout in any way/shape/form. It is still painful to see that others can do it, but I can't. This is NOT what I had envisioned when I had this stupid surgery. I was convinced that it would be the complete opposite - this would open lots of doors and I could run again and life would be grand. Yeah...not so much.
So I'm doing the best that I can, but I have lost so much strength that it's just ridiculous. I'm having to learn a whole new strength training world that I thought I was done with. It's not my favorite, but it is necessary. I have been able to go to the gym as much as I would like due to football games, but those are now over, so no excuses. I should be able to hit the gym every night after work, and then some. And hit it HARD.
Let's do this!
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Friday, October 25, 2013
Saturday, June 29, 2013
Satisfaction
I set a goal for myself to go to the gym and do at least 2 hours of working out. Then when I got up this morning, I didn't want to. I was comfy in my chair and wanted to stay there all day long. Thankfully, my husband told me I had to go. And so I did.
Today was also weigh in day for me. I climbed on the scale with trepidation because, although I've been working my butt off, I've seen a little gain every week for the last 3 weeks and it was starting to upset me. However, I made a couple of small changes and they paid off. I had a loss of 3.25 lbs. My weight is now 229.25. I have lost a total of 48.25 lbs since I began this journey so many years ago. Slow and steady...but we need to pick up the pace again!
I haven't been in the 220s for probably 20 years, so the feeling of hitting that number is pretty awesome. Now the goal is to hit the 2teens. Trying to take this journey 10 lbs at a time. That way I won't get overwhelmed thinking of how far I have to go.
My ankle was still hurting today, but not as bad. I really wish I knew what was going on, but I'm also afraid to know what's going on. Speaking of pain, I haven't really been able to do push ups on my knees since surgery. The pressure on whatever is healing below my kneecap was just too much. Today, I decided to give it a try. I couldn't do them exactly like I used to (with my knees bent, all pressure on kneecap), but I was able to straighten my legs and do them. I did 125 of them, as a matter of fact. Along with 125 lat pull downs @ 55 lbs, 125 squats, and 125 sit ups. I also did 20 minutes on the stationary bike, and 45 minutes on the treadmill (which included Week 1, Day 3 of C25K). And then hubby and I went for a 60 minute walk this evening.
Tomorrow I'm hoping to get my hands on some fresh kale. I've been wanting to try it for a while, but just never worked up the nerve. I'm very hesitant to try new foods sometimes, for fear I won't like it and I'll have wasted my money. A local produce farm is selling it in a farmer's market-type setting, and it's only $2 for a Ziploc gallon bag. I can spend $2 to try something! And so I'm going to. I can't wait to see what other veggies they have for sale. I'd rather support a local family and get garden-fresh produce than buy the picked/shipped from who-knows-where stuff at the grocery store or Walmart.
So perhaps I'll have a report coming soon on my experiment with kale. I'm really hoping I fall in love with it (like I did asparagus)!
Today was also weigh in day for me. I climbed on the scale with trepidation because, although I've been working my butt off, I've seen a little gain every week for the last 3 weeks and it was starting to upset me. However, I made a couple of small changes and they paid off. I had a loss of 3.25 lbs. My weight is now 229.25. I have lost a total of 48.25 lbs since I began this journey so many years ago. Slow and steady...but we need to pick up the pace again!
I haven't been in the 220s for probably 20 years, so the feeling of hitting that number is pretty awesome. Now the goal is to hit the 2teens. Trying to take this journey 10 lbs at a time. That way I won't get overwhelmed thinking of how far I have to go.
My ankle was still hurting today, but not as bad. I really wish I knew what was going on, but I'm also afraid to know what's going on. Speaking of pain, I haven't really been able to do push ups on my knees since surgery. The pressure on whatever is healing below my kneecap was just too much. Today, I decided to give it a try. I couldn't do them exactly like I used to (with my knees bent, all pressure on kneecap), but I was able to straighten my legs and do them. I did 125 of them, as a matter of fact. Along with 125 lat pull downs @ 55 lbs, 125 squats, and 125 sit ups. I also did 20 minutes on the stationary bike, and 45 minutes on the treadmill (which included Week 1, Day 3 of C25K). And then hubby and I went for a 60 minute walk this evening.
Tomorrow I'm hoping to get my hands on some fresh kale. I've been wanting to try it for a while, but just never worked up the nerve. I'm very hesitant to try new foods sometimes, for fear I won't like it and I'll have wasted my money. A local produce farm is selling it in a farmer's market-type setting, and it's only $2 for a Ziploc gallon bag. I can spend $2 to try something! And so I'm going to. I can't wait to see what other veggies they have for sale. I'd rather support a local family and get garden-fresh produce than buy the picked/shipped from who-knows-where stuff at the grocery store or Walmart.
So perhaps I'll have a report coming soon on my experiment with kale. I'm really hoping I fall in love with it (like I did asparagus)!
Friday, June 28, 2013
Frustration
I had to scrap the C25K last week and restart it this week. I've been able to do 2 days so far, and I'm hoping to do day 3 tomorrow. Now that the knee is feeling decent, I'm having ankle problems. I've developed a sharp, stabbing pain in the inner aspect of my left ankle. It was so bad today that I could barely walk.
I know I probably need to go back to my ortho to find out what's going on, but I'm kind of scared to find out. I am worried that I've messed up something big and it will require several weeks/months of fixing. I will NOT have surgery again, though. I just cannot go through that again right now. I'm going to give it a little more time and see what happens. Hopefully it will just get all better magically. I can dream, can't I?
I know I probably need to go back to my ortho to find out what's going on, but I'm kind of scared to find out. I am worried that I've messed up something big and it will require several weeks/months of fixing. I will NOT have surgery again, though. I just cannot go through that again right now. I'm going to give it a little more time and see what happens. Hopefully it will just get all better magically. I can dream, can't I?
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