Changes

My knee is injured again.  It has been for a couple of months and the doctor is taking a very conservative approach and having me try different anti-inflammatories.  They are not working.  I fear that another surgery is on the horizon, and that makes me sad/angry/disappointed.  There are so many things that I still cannot do that I could do before the surgery.  It has changed my life in many ways.

One of the biggest ways is that I've had to accept the fact that I cannot do CrossFit any more and I do not know if I ever will be able to.  There are some things I could do, but many, many things would have to be modified...some to the point that they wouldn't even resemble the original workout in any way/shape/form.  It is still painful to see that others can do it, but I can't.  This is NOT what I had envisioned when I had this stupid surgery.  I was convinced that it would be the complete opposite - this would open lots of doors and I could run again and life would be grand.  Yeah...not so much.

So I'm doing the best that I can, but I have lost so much strength that it's just ridiculous.  I'm having to learn a whole new strength training world that I thought I was done with.  It's not my favorite, but it is necessary.  I have been able to go to the gym as much as I would like due to football games, but those are now over, so no excuses. I should be able to hit the gym every night after work, and then some.  And hit it HARD. 

Let's do this!